Dale Miller

I have two new family members! Their names are (subject to change) Cinderella and Ashley. They are two quite cute kitties. Pictures will follow soon.

After spending half an hour deciding what I wanted wear tonight, I climbed into the bathtub, relaxed a bit, and decided to just stay home tonight. So I had some yummy sandwiches, and I’m headed for the bedroom where I’m going to prop myself up in bed and read a book. Will the excitement never end?

I spent 45 minutes sitting in the parking lot of Wal-Mart in Bryant, after driving 30 miles to do so. Why, do you ask? Because I wasn’t paying attention, that’s why! I’m supposed to meet Jamie to get a kitten on Sunday, not today. Ah well, you would think I would have learned to read by this time in my life.

I really need to get out and do something tonight. Maybe dinner? Maybe go to Discovery afterwards? Or I could go to the star party at Pinnacle. Then again, maybe I’ll just stay home. Any nice females want to join me for any of those activities? I didn’t think so. Oh well, I’ll figure it out in a couple of hours.

It’s Friday. I was hoping to go to the Weekend Theater tonight with youlovemycar, but she’s still not feeling well. So I suppose it’s another Friday night at Sufficient Grounds. My laptop is dead, so I won’t be doing any wireless posting this weekend.

That’s the sum of my plans for the weekend. I really should find something to do the rest of the time. I should clean up the house and put more stuff away (and redo shelves in one closet), but I probably won’t. I’m saving a bunch of tasks for cooler weather. That may just be an excuse to put them off, however.

I haven’t heard from Jamie or stupidgibberish in regard to getting a kitten, but I hope that is a possibility.

I decided to go to the LJ Meetup this evening, for one major reason. I wanted to get a chance to meet and talk with Bailey and Chuck. I talked to Heather about 5:00, and she said the three of them would be at Sufficient Grounds around 7:30. Since I had nothing better to do, I got there a little after 6:00, ate dinner, had a couple of Java Freezes, and waited around. 7:30 came…and went. So did 8:00. At about 8:30 I decided that I was tired and needed to be heading home, since it’s a long drive. Of course, as I was leaving, Heather, Bailey and Chuck walked up. So… I got to meet them for about 30 seconds and then drove away. Maybe someday I’ll actually get a chance to talk with them.

Yesterday started out not so hot, because I was feeling sorry for myself. I was hoping to get a kitten from Jamie, but as stupidgibberish mentioned, she seemed to disappear yesterday. So no kitten. :( I moped around most of the day, but finally decided that I was going to go see the Red Octopus Theater production “Pagans Down the Tubes”. I’m glad I went. I managed to actually laugh out loud several times, which is good for the psyche. Afterward I decided to go be Discovery just because I was awake and bored. It’s been several months since I had been there. They have rearranged and redecorated slightly. Some things I liked, others I didn’t. I remembered both why I liked going there (seeing attractive women dressed to impress) and why I didn’t (cigarette smoke, and I still end up going home alone). The only person I ran into there that I knew was jbtipshus. He, of course, managed to have beautiful women talking to him. I’m quite envious. Jack does well in social situations. Dale doesn’t. All-in-all not a bad evening, though. Far better than staying at home feeling sorry for myself.

I overate yesterday, no surprise there.

• Half a bag of Tostitos corn chips
• The requisite 3 Metab-O-Lite pills
• A pepperoni, mushroom and black olive calzone at Vino’s
• A can of sprite
• A can of Dr Pepper
• A 7-11 ice cream sandwich (messy)
• A Good Humor chocolate ice cream/candy bar

Still, 173 at the end of the night, so I’m not doing too badly.

My plans for today consist of doing laundry and hoping I get a message about picking up a kitten.

Maybe not so much the description, but certainly the disorder.

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Yesterday was strange. I had a pretty good day at work. John and I managed to finish up the residence hall laundry room project, and I was quite pleased with it. However, as my evening went on, I got more and more down. By the time I left Sufficient Grounds (around 8:00, early for me), I was almost in tears. I’m a bit better now, but certainly not bright and cheerful.

I probably had more calories yesterday than the rest of the week combined. Intake was:

• 2 Metab-O-Lite pills
• 2 devil’s-food doughnuts
• 2 S.G. java freezes (1 caramel, 1 chocolate/raspberry)
• 8-inch pizza with several toppings
• A handful of chocolate chip cookies

I was smart enough to not weigh myself last night.
If I don’t get my mood back up somewhat, I may as well give up on dieting. It will never work. When I become down, I want to eat.

I still haven’t heard about getting a new family member (kitten) today. :( I don’t have a number to call Jamie, so I’m dependant on hearing from her.

I have come to some realizations, which aren’t news to anyone who knows me. Actually, it’s not that I have just realized these things, but I’m admitting them to myself rather than denying them.

1. I’m a loser.
2. That’s not likely to change.
3. The three relationships I have been in were all instigated by women who wanted to use me.
4. I’m willing to accept that because I’d rather be used than be alone.
5. Regardless of how much I weigh, or what kind of shape I’m in, women aren’t going to find me attractive.
6. I should give up on meeting the girl of my dreams, because she would be smart enough to stay away from me.
7. Sara Morgan was right — I’m hopeless.

I’m going to go pig out on chocolate chip cookies now.